As I read the blog, I realized that many of you might wonder why I would fast during pregnancy...and even think that it was the reason for miscarriage. I want to clarify that it was not a total fast, or a liquid fast, but simply fasting from soda and caffeine, which was the direction the Lord gave me. He is wise and knows what our bodies need for health. Any pregnant woman could benefit health-wise from such a fast, but I benefited spiritually!
God bless you!
Sarah
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Season of Change
Ecclesiastes 3:1-3 (NASB)
"There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven--
A time to give birth and a time to die; a time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted. A time to kill and a time to heal; a time to tear down and a time to build up."
When I first committed my life to Christ, and asked him to be my Lord and Savior, I was told by many people about the "seasons" which Christians go through. My walk with the Lord started red hot, on fire, and it was absolutely amazing! I was seeking knowledge of the Lord, seeking his face, seeking his presence and observing his power in amazing ways! My friend kept telling me that eventually, a different season would come and it might not be exactly like it was in the beginning. God takes us through many different seasons, as he teaches us, and he guides us into perfection.
These past few weeks, I have gone MIA on this blog. I apologize for my lack of faithfulness, as my first trial came to writing daily about my walk with God. You see, it is easy to write when everything is going really well, but it is much harder to share the more difficult parts of walking with God. Instead of doing what was right, and required of me by my Lord, I just stopped writing. So, I am going to explain what has been happening with me recently and hopefully use it to give you all hope as you might be going through your own difficult season.
Honestly, I don't remember exactly what my last post was about, but I believe it was telling you about how God was working in my pregnancy. Well, the first change of this new season was that my pregnancy ended completely with a full miscarriage. It was surprising and unexpected, even after I had believed with so much faith that the Lord was going to continue a healthy pregnancy. I had a deep sense that it might end, but I was not going to give up. I kept believing the Lord to heal my body. Well, the Lord in his Sovereignty chose for me not to have a child at this time. I trust that, and I have great peace and joy knowing that my Lord is in control of ALL things. I trust him deeply with my life, and I know that he makes plans based on what is best in the long run for us and others around us. It was difficult, as my body did not recover immediately. I was tired, sick, and in some pain for most of the day. I felt as though I had been run over by a semi-truck, and was having trouble getting out of bed. In all honesty, I had one real dark day with the Lord in which I told him how I felt about it all, and then this amazing warmth (God's healing) just washed over me. I had peace all throughout my body and soul, and my body began to feel better. I am now back at full strength of energy, and the nausea and pains have ceased. Praise the Lord....his mercy endureth forever! Many people began coming up to me all around our community, talking to me about the fact they "heard" I lost the pregnancy. News travelled fast, but that was fine with me. The strangest thing was happening to me. I felt joy and peace, but others would look at me with sadness and I was even told that I was still mourning, or that I should be mourning! I would tell them that I had peace and joy, and it seemed no one believed me. I can honestly say, with all my heart, that I have peace and joy in this circumstance. I am not dwelling on the loss, and I know that in God's time, I am sure I could have more children, but I will wait upon the Lord to find out if this is what He desires for our family.
So, moving on after this, yet another change of this new season. This change seemed sudden, but it actually was not. When I started working at the Christian preschool, I believed the Lord was telling me that I would not work there for a long period of time. But sometimes, we make oaths to people that are not in line with God's perfect will. This is what happened. I opened my mouth day one to tell my new boss that I would be working with her until May 2009 when we left Guam. Shortly after beginning my new ministry, I realized that I had spoken very presumptously. The Lord directed me to fast for 40 days, and I was obedient. During this time, the Lord showed me amazing scriptural truths, but he also began to show me that I had a task to complete other than teaching. Upon completion of my task, I would no longer work at the preschool. This is exactly what happened.
I cannot share the details of the situation on this blog, but know that it was an amazing, but very difficult task to complete. The Lord has blessed me and my family because of our obedience, and I thank God that he sees the larger picture of the path of our life. We truly have nothing to worry about if we trust God to make our paths straight. He is always faithful!
The former season ended on a Friday, and on Monday, my daughter started 1st grade. I also got a chance to see my Christian sisters at the Protestant Women of the Chapel "Meet and Greet" and signed up for a fall Bible study on Wednesday mornings called "Created to be His Help Meet." Relationships that had been put to the side during my former season are now coming new again, and being refreshed. I am currently asking the Lord about what is next for me and my family, but I am encouraged knowing that God has a plan for our lives, and it is a plan to prosper us and not to harm us. I am focusing once again on my own family, serving them, and it is wonderful to be the one raising my son at home again. It was hard for him to be with someone else all day long, when I wanted to be with him. It is a new season with new joys, new challenges, and new lessons to learn. Just one more step on the path to eternity~
May God bless you today, regardless of what season you are currently in. Know that the Lord loves you and is with you, he will never leave you nor forsake you. If you are in a difficult season, know that the Lord sees you exactly where you are, and there must be a change of season right around the corner!
Be blessed today in the name of Jesus!
Sarah
"There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven--
A time to give birth and a time to die; a time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted. A time to kill and a time to heal; a time to tear down and a time to build up."
When I first committed my life to Christ, and asked him to be my Lord and Savior, I was told by many people about the "seasons" which Christians go through. My walk with the Lord started red hot, on fire, and it was absolutely amazing! I was seeking knowledge of the Lord, seeking his face, seeking his presence and observing his power in amazing ways! My friend kept telling me that eventually, a different season would come and it might not be exactly like it was in the beginning. God takes us through many different seasons, as he teaches us, and he guides us into perfection.
These past few weeks, I have gone MIA on this blog. I apologize for my lack of faithfulness, as my first trial came to writing daily about my walk with God. You see, it is easy to write when everything is going really well, but it is much harder to share the more difficult parts of walking with God. Instead of doing what was right, and required of me by my Lord, I just stopped writing. So, I am going to explain what has been happening with me recently and hopefully use it to give you all hope as you might be going through your own difficult season.
Honestly, I don't remember exactly what my last post was about, but I believe it was telling you about how God was working in my pregnancy. Well, the first change of this new season was that my pregnancy ended completely with a full miscarriage. It was surprising and unexpected, even after I had believed with so much faith that the Lord was going to continue a healthy pregnancy. I had a deep sense that it might end, but I was not going to give up. I kept believing the Lord to heal my body. Well, the Lord in his Sovereignty chose for me not to have a child at this time. I trust that, and I have great peace and joy knowing that my Lord is in control of ALL things. I trust him deeply with my life, and I know that he makes plans based on what is best in the long run for us and others around us. It was difficult, as my body did not recover immediately. I was tired, sick, and in some pain for most of the day. I felt as though I had been run over by a semi-truck, and was having trouble getting out of bed. In all honesty, I had one real dark day with the Lord in which I told him how I felt about it all, and then this amazing warmth (God's healing) just washed over me. I had peace all throughout my body and soul, and my body began to feel better. I am now back at full strength of energy, and the nausea and pains have ceased. Praise the Lord....his mercy endureth forever! Many people began coming up to me all around our community, talking to me about the fact they "heard" I lost the pregnancy. News travelled fast, but that was fine with me. The strangest thing was happening to me. I felt joy and peace, but others would look at me with sadness and I was even told that I was still mourning, or that I should be mourning! I would tell them that I had peace and joy, and it seemed no one believed me. I can honestly say, with all my heart, that I have peace and joy in this circumstance. I am not dwelling on the loss, and I know that in God's time, I am sure I could have more children, but I will wait upon the Lord to find out if this is what He desires for our family.
So, moving on after this, yet another change of this new season. This change seemed sudden, but it actually was not. When I started working at the Christian preschool, I believed the Lord was telling me that I would not work there for a long period of time. But sometimes, we make oaths to people that are not in line with God's perfect will. This is what happened. I opened my mouth day one to tell my new boss that I would be working with her until May 2009 when we left Guam. Shortly after beginning my new ministry, I realized that I had spoken very presumptously. The Lord directed me to fast for 40 days, and I was obedient. During this time, the Lord showed me amazing scriptural truths, but he also began to show me that I had a task to complete other than teaching. Upon completion of my task, I would no longer work at the preschool. This is exactly what happened.
I cannot share the details of the situation on this blog, but know that it was an amazing, but very difficult task to complete. The Lord has blessed me and my family because of our obedience, and I thank God that he sees the larger picture of the path of our life. We truly have nothing to worry about if we trust God to make our paths straight. He is always faithful!
The former season ended on a Friday, and on Monday, my daughter started 1st grade. I also got a chance to see my Christian sisters at the Protestant Women of the Chapel "Meet and Greet" and signed up for a fall Bible study on Wednesday mornings called "Created to be His Help Meet." Relationships that had been put to the side during my former season are now coming new again, and being refreshed. I am currently asking the Lord about what is next for me and my family, but I am encouraged knowing that God has a plan for our lives, and it is a plan to prosper us and not to harm us. I am focusing once again on my own family, serving them, and it is wonderful to be the one raising my son at home again. It was hard for him to be with someone else all day long, when I wanted to be with him. It is a new season with new joys, new challenges, and new lessons to learn. Just one more step on the path to eternity~
May God bless you today, regardless of what season you are currently in. Know that the Lord loves you and is with you, he will never leave you nor forsake you. If you are in a difficult season, know that the Lord sees you exactly where you are, and there must be a change of season right around the corner!
Be blessed today in the name of Jesus!
Sarah
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